kawen oo kawen..

there are so much emotions tt i feel at this moment.Since my wedding will be in 2 weeks times n it really scares me off to think about what's gonna happen as there are so many things that need to settle and taking care 4 tt big day!lecturer linda pnh ckp, ble time nk kawen nie, mmg byk mslh akn timbul & byk org akn masuk campur.As for my case, byk ckp2 yg x baik kdengarn & i wonder why they did such thing!Terlalu byk dugaan yg linda tempuhi spnjg tempoh nk bkawen nie..Sometimes, i do feel tt i'm not strong enough to face all of da obstacles but then, deep inside my heart i believe tt, if we love somebody full heartedly, love will find its way..=D

balik kampung..

erm..i've away from my hometown, Kuching for about a year and half now..& i miss my family& frenz backhome so much!..gosh,i'll be fly back to Kuching this Saturday & can't wait to meet all of my loved ones..people says that, absence makes the heart grew founder..i guess they right coz whenever i'm away from my family, there's no day passing by without me thinking about them..I love my family so much and i really hope that, i' ll have a pleasant & happy holiday with them..Amin.

How to handle things?

I still feel down right now and i try my best to overcome my sadness. What should we do when we are not in da bez mood?hm..let see:
1) ring our friend & pour our heart out (will they listen 2 us?..huhu..)
2) check our fs & post out a pathethic bulletin..
3) go to nearest hill and shout out loud ( ppl say it a good theraphy,is it?)
4) shopping!
5) job down in the diary/ journal how much u hate ur life
6) yell at every1 that u bump..=D
7) stay in our bedroom and listening to slow- pathetic music!..yikes!

what we really shld do actually?..i dont hv any idea on tt!..pheaw..

judging others

My life for this week is suck and i guess, it will continue be that way until the weeken*sob,sob*.I really dont get it, why people tend to easily judge us? I've been judge or shld i said accused xde perasaan, x fikirkn psl org lain, cpt marah, pentingkn kwn..u juz name it, i got it.It really hurt to hear poeple saying those accusation to u. they dont even know how we really feel inside..kenapa sng sgt2 nk nilai org?..

A Man Called Daddy

While I was waiting for my fiance at the bus stand yesterday, there was a lorry stopped in front of me. The driver of that lorry was a chinese old man and he looked totally tired.Then,the driver stepped out from the lorry and opened the passenger's door and wiped out it seats with a shirt that he hang at his own seat.After that, he walked to the school and not long after that, I saw him walking with a little girl whose chatting happily to him.He looked extremely tired to me but then, he still managed to act happily in front of that little girl.I felt touched and all of sudden, it makes me realized the power of father's love.There was a time also, when I was at the ATM machine and an old chinese guy came up to the man behind me and he asked for a favour. That chinese guy wanted to send money to his daughter but as you guys know, BSN does not have any cash- machine and furthurmore, it was almost 9 pm.He just need somebody to transfer RM50 to his daughter's account and he will give RM50 cash back. At first, the man behind me refused to help and after they talked, he agreed. I wonder, if the daughter knows that her dad pleaded to others to bank in money to her,what would she feel?..For me personally, when I saw that old guy's condition, i felt liked all of the children in this world should cherish their parents and must try to be the best kids that they can as our parents have gone through lots of hardship just to raise us up and they never complaint about it..I really miss my parents right now!!!

A bad day?

I went to Jabatan Agama Ipoh Perak today along with my fiance as we need to get the HIV test forms and some other related forms that we need to fill up for our wedding.On my way to JAIP,he asked me,"nape x pakai tudung?"..i just dont know what to say as i left my home hurriedly.Then,when he went to get the forms,I just waited for him outside the room as there is a notice on the door that says,"Diharap anda berpakaian kemas& menutup aurat sewaktu berurusan".I felt so shamed of myself at that time as all the people passes by kinda gave me 'the look' but I need to act cool in front of my fiance or else he will utter his famous words,"tu lah, degil sangat"..After we got all the forms,we went to his motocycle and surprisedly, my is helmet gone.I really dont understand why on earth do people want to stel a helmet?What were he thinking?gosh..because of that, I had to wait for my fiance to find a new helmet for me.Poor him, he searched all over the Ipoh town for it and I had to wait foe him for almost an hour at the bus stand in front of a chinese school.Why do people steal?why cant they just work if they want to get something?..

petrol naik?

i was on my way for dinner around 9pm and i was surprised to see a long queue kt smue petrol station around ipoh ni.smue org berebut2 nk isi minyak smpi kn ade penunggang motosikal yg siap bwk botol utk bli minyak..i rasa kesian plak kt smue driver2 nih..(thankfully i dont drive yet)..klu bg yg mampu tu, x pe lh gak tp bg yg gaji ciput camne?..cian tau..dh lh skrg nih harga brg smue naik,skrg ni petrol plak naik..pheaw,what's next?..ape2 pon, i really hope tt all of this crisis will end soon..amin..